Wow do I have mixed feelings about writing this post. I honestly didn’t think I would be writing on this blog again. It has been a fun, interesting and very challenging year. A lot of personal growing was made and a lot of heart ache and pain was mixed in. The end of any relationship is always a hard thing to accept. It is made especially hard when the reasons for it ending having nothing to do with how great things are, how much the people involved love each other, or get along, etc. Fear of the unknown holds so many people back from life. Fear destroys happiness and sabotages hope. You only get one life. Use it wisely.
I was ready to take a leap of faith, to throw caution to the wind, and embark on a new adventure without knowing what the end outcome would be. But a relationship always has 2 people in it and you can’t always rely on the other person to take that leap with you. It’s a hard situation to be in when you know how good what you have is, but you can’t do anything but stand by and watch that other person let fear ruin everything. It’s maddening, and more than a little emotionally damaging. But I can’t dwell on the life I almost had and instead have to move on with my actual life.
So it is with a mix of sadness for what I have just lost, fear for embarking on dates again, and hope that this time around will yield the person who is finally willing to take that leap with me, that I re-activated one of my dating profiles. Only time will tell what is lurking in the dating pool this go round.